I've always been at least one of the following, albeit at different times and with varying degrees: a paranormal investigator, an artist, a writer, a liminal being and a sensitive, yet deeply damaged person, fighting to be seen. I never understood, however, who I was as a complete and whole person. And furthermore, I could never grasp how I mattered or how I could help - in the most authentic way - in my field.; in the paranormal.
At any given time in the last handful of years you could hear me saying I was NOT "psychic", which now looks to be something I did in fear of both claiming a title I didn't quite understand and taking space away from others I had deemed more worthy. Later, the martyrdom-esque nature of this became more apparent and exhausted defeat set in. Turning away from the public eye, the veil around me began to lift and reveal that by hiding and belittling myself, I was helping no one and accomplishing nothing. Contradictive to the former, each passing year I've studied and investigated the occult has shown to be more and more fruitful in my personal, paranormal endeavors. I've given my friends and family transformative insights, have channeled visions and messages from beyond, procured information I could have never known, and opened a throughline to the Otherside. And then began redefining it all together. It's funny how one could be so enveloped in a world where weirdos reign, and yet still feel ashamed to be yourself. Not that it's the only contributing factor but the internet does have an uncanny ability to strip us of our individuality and manifest shame when reclaiming it. Never less, I feel compelled to say...I should reintroduce myself. My name is Amanda D. Paulson. I have gone to great lengths to like myself. To feel seen without the words of others. To believe my paranormal experiences without further validation. I am a paranormal investigator, an artist, a writer, a liminal being and an intuitive medium. I can communicate with the deepest, hidden parts of people, objects and places, through spirits, visions, or smell. And I use the spirit box and a blindfold to help me channel this into art and prose to share with others to help them journey through the darkest liminal passageways of their life and thereafter.
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AmandaAmanda is a paranormal investigator with 15 years of experience located in Spokane, Washington. Archives
June 2023
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